Sometime it's hard having a baby in the NICU. I love her so much now that she is here, but it is so hard to leave her. Every time I see her I don't want to leave her. Then when I am not with her I feel guilty. I know that I cannot be with her all the time right now, but it just hurts. Some days are better than others, but today is not one of those days. I am so glad that she is as healthy as she is, but she is just so tiny. Weighing in at only 2 lbs 8 oz when she was born she still has some growing to do. Sometimes I question myself as to what I did wrong, or what I could have done differently. I wish I knew what made me go into labor that day. I wish I knew why she was so ready to be here. I wish my baby was home with me right now.
I know she is doing very well for as early as she is. I have to keep reminding myself of that. And I understand that she cannot come home until she is ready, I do understand that. And I know that someone else is watching over her to make sure of that. But it still hurts...
I want my baby home with me.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Letter to Sadie
Dear Little Sadie,
Little Bit, Peanut, Angel, Precious, Daughter…
Every time I see you, I don’t want to leave.
Every time I hold you, I don’t want to put you down.
Every time I bathe you, I don’t want it to end.
Every time I touch you, I don’t want to stop.
Every time I hold your little hand, I don’t want to let it go.
Every time I kiss you, I want to kiss you more.
Every time I change your stinky little diaper, I want to do it again.
Every time I look into your little eyes, I don’t want to close mine.
Every time I think of you, I smile.
Just know that when we are not with you, you are in our hearts and minds always.
Know that you will always be loved.
Know that you are what keeps us going.
Know that each time we see you it brings joy to our lives.
Know that you are the most precious thing in the world to us.
Know that there are lots of people that are praying for you each and every day.
Know that we miss you dearly.
Know that you have a home to come to when you are ready.
And know that your parents love you very much.
You are the light of our lives and we cannot wait for you to come home. But until then we want you to grow big and strong and behave yourself for all of your wonderful nurses in the NICU.
We love you very much,
Mommy and Daddy
Little Bit, Peanut, Angel, Precious, Daughter…
Every time I see you, I don’t want to leave.
Every time I hold you, I don’t want to put you down.
Every time I bathe you, I don’t want it to end.
Every time I touch you, I don’t want to stop.
Every time I hold your little hand, I don’t want to let it go.
Every time I kiss you, I want to kiss you more.
Every time I change your stinky little diaper, I want to do it again.
Every time I look into your little eyes, I don’t want to close mine.
Every time I think of you, I smile.
Just know that when we are not with you, you are in our hearts and minds always.
Know that you will always be loved.
Know that you are what keeps us going.
Know that each time we see you it brings joy to our lives.
Know that you are the most precious thing in the world to us.
Know that there are lots of people that are praying for you each and every day.
Know that we miss you dearly.
Know that you have a home to come to when you are ready.
And know that your parents love you very much.
You are the light of our lives and we cannot wait for you to come home. But until then we want you to grow big and strong and behave yourself for all of your wonderful nurses in the NICU.
We love you very much,
Mommy and Daddy
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